This photo is a rare snapshot, the highest high of 2013. There is so much you don’t see or feel but I do. I see in this photo a woman so purely happy that nothing else matters. Behind her, the mountains of the largest island in the Cyclades, the very ones they’ll wind through on a European scooter. Behind the camera is the love of her life who is laughing heartily as she strikes a pose not typical of a typically serious woman. And behind him, the pure white church so typical of this country.
I allowed myself to relax this year and not act impulsively to fix everything right away, all the time, which found me in a state of limbo sometimes but pushed me to appreciate the simple things I love during most times. I cooked (a lot), I traveled, I loved and let myself develop and be. I stopped trying to be what I thought my little world wanted. I spoke up and stopped trying to undervalue my talents. Maybe this was my version of a mini-quarter life crisis. In that case, good.
More than anything, I found strength and conquered the fear of never being or having enough. Wow. This changed the way I look at myself, make decisions, spend money, nurture relationships and ultimately live my life and I don’t know how it happened but I’m so damn glad it did. I’m not going to act like I’m some expert and write you a step by step guide to finding contentment in your life. No one is qualified to do that. My takeaway, my advice? You need to struggle. You need to struggle a lot and that means a lot of different things to different people and that’s why there’s no cut and paste guide.
There are two times I find myself thinking impossibly clearly…while traveling (post- jet lag) and writing. So let’s just say in 2014 I resolve to do more of both. Happy New Year to you all! I’m so grateful for you xx